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                            | Red 
                                Feline on the Cross - Chapter 5 - The Spanish 
                                Horse - Page 6 |  |   
                      | Red 
                          Feline was left alone to spend the night? day? She 
                          wasn't going to find out because the darkness in the 
                          dungeon was not as dark as her night. She 
                          remained unconscious, perhaps a relief, for quite a 
                          while.
                         She was both a witness and a participant 
                          of another event. She could see from the distance 
                          how Piroska's body was lowered from her cross and as 
                          her body reached the ground, she also felt the relief 
                          on her arms, even if they were still attached to the 
                          timber. 
                          For a moment there was complete 
                          silence, everyone was looking at the naked body on the 
                          ground. The soldiers stood silent, waiting for instructions. 
                          Piroska's aunt was sobbing uncontrollably. The voice 
                          of the Governor crossed Red Feline's ears as if he was 
                          speaking to her. 
                         "Take her to the dungeon and 
                          place her in the Fosa!", he ordered "So the 
                          insects and rats can eat her body.". 
                         The soldiers grabbed the timber 
                          to drag her away when Piroska let out a moan, revealing 
                          to all that she was still alive. "Wait!", 
                          the Governor yelled. "She lives!".  
                         Red Feline felt a hand grabbing her 
                          hair and was back in the dark room where the Man in 
                          Black unceremoniously lifted her head and dropped it. 
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                      | Red 
                          Feline, absorbed as she was with the fate of her 
                          alter ego, the young slave, hadn't heard the ominous 
                          steps of her torturer who returned to continue his work, 
                          because, for him, that's what it was, work.
                         He checked to see if she was still 
                          breathing. She was resilient as she was stubborn and 
                          courageous. Red Feline knew those thoughts as she knew 
                          what the Governor thought of Piroska who moved her 
                          head and opened her eyes to see the sky above and the 
                          soldier looking down. She heard the Governor as he ordered 
                          again. "Take her to the dungeon and you...", 
                          he turned to Piroska's aunt, "...you keep her from 
                          dying today...but only today". Saying this, he 
                          walked away as the soldiers dragged Piroska, followed 
                          by the crying aunt.  
                         Red Feline felt the pull on Piroska's 
                          arms as her own arms were pulled up.  |  |   
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                      | The Man in 
                          Black pulled the horse from under Red Feline, pressing 
                          it against her wounded flesh. She reacted momentarily 
                          by pulling herself up, more an instinct than anything 
                          else. She could still gather some strength. 
                         Slowly, she felt herself being pulled 
                          away from Piroska's body as she was painfully dragged 
                          to the Fosa. As she left the yard, she passed through 
                          a path that led to an entrance and some steps into what 
                          before was a large cave. 
                        As she was dragged into the dungeon, she passed 
                        into the dark room where Red Feline was still being removed 
                        from the wooden horse. The merging of these worlds in Red 
                          Feline's mind was not a strange event for her. She often 
                          exchanged fantasies in her head, playing with them, 
                          making them interact. It was especially true when she 
                          was in physical distress, as when she hung from her 
                          tree. 
                         She was familiar with the young 
                          slave and that cross where she had been lashed, she 
                          knew the horse where she sat all this time, under the 
                          whip. She knew them well, she had fantasized often about 
                          them and she was curious to know why it was all becoming 
                          so real. Had she finally lost her mind?
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                      | As the 
                          wooden horse was pulled away, a sudden relief came 
                          over Red Feline, followed by a sharp pain on her labial 
                          lips where blood returned to a normal flow. She 
                          let out a soft moan.The wood forced her legs to open 
                          wide, and as it was pulled, splinters and wires scratched 
                          her legs as the torturer finally dismounted her from 
                          the horse. She felt her weight pulling her arms, 
                          her wrists.
                         Her body twisted slowly in the air. 
                          She was feeling her body while, at the same time, feeling 
                          Piroska's body dragged into a large cell inside 
                          the enormous cave, slowly recovering her consciousness 
                          and the feeling in her body. 
                          The soldiers dragged the young 
                          slave inside a cell and placed her in the center of 
                          it, face-up, her wrists still attached to the timber. 
                          One soldier pulled Piroska's aunt into the cell. "What 
                          do you need?", he asked. "Water,", she 
                          replied, "and a bag of healing herbs I have in 
                          my room, you can ask one of my apprentices for it and 
                          bring it quickly, please.". The woman sat by the 
                          side of the tortured slave and tried to release her 
                          wrists from her bonds. She couldn't.  
                         Red Feline looked down at the body 
                          of the young slave for a brief moment. It was her own 
                          body she was seeing, still hanging in the dark room.
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                      | Piroska 
                          looked up from her unconscious state and saw her aunt 
                          over her, crying softly, while at the same time 
                          the body of Red Feline, hanging from her wrists, twisting 
                          in mid air, and beyond, her own body resting on 
                          the ground of the cell. 
                         "Cut the rope.", her aunt 
                          requested from the soldier, "I can't help her like 
                          this.". The soldier cut the ropes that held Piroska's 
                          thin wrists. Large incisions were uncovered by the ropes. 
                          They had cut deep, almost to the bone, the blood was 
                          dry by then but as the ropes were pulled away, some 
                          of the dried blood and skin were pulled away as well. 
                          Piroska bled again. 
                         Her aunt ripped her own garments 
                          and began to wrap pieces of them around the bleeding 
                          wrists.  
                         Piroska turned again to see Red 
                          Feline hanging in the dark room. Her feet almost touching 
                          the strange wooden floor, her arms stretched, her breast 
                          pierced by the long nail, her eyes close, her breathing 
                          low.
                         "Where did she suffer the most?", 
                          Red Feline asked herself. She didn't know.  |  |   
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                                fifth day of torture was not done, 
                                the next torture was about to begin. As 
                                Camille sat there, on the awful looking horse 
                                of pain, I wondered if she would be willing to 
                                continue for the night. She 
                                looked so pitiful, the blood on the sharp edge 
                                of the horse was so telling. Her head just hanged 
                                there, as if all of her energy or life force 
                                had left her. As JJ walked away after the 
                                ferocious whipping and left her I was filled 
                                with pain myself. I had seen her face up close 
                                when JJ lifted her head. Was she really in a dark 
                                world where pain could not reach? Or was 
                                she just making us believe that?. 
                                I wasn't really 
                                surprised anymore, I could see that Camille could 
                                take a lot more than even she thought...we were 
                                half way there, the worst was yet to come. 
                                I wanted to go to sleep. When JJ came back and 
                                told us that it was enough I was relieved, 
                                what I didn't expect was Camille raising her head, 
                                still in character saying: "Chicken.". 
                               The next torture was 
                                about to begin. Camille remained seated 
                                on the horse as JJ prepared her next ordeal. I 
                                wasn't sure anymore how much was our fantasy and 
                                how much was her reality. We were halfway through 
                                ... but still, the worst was still to come. Camille 
                                knew that too, and she probably had a chance to 
                                consider this question as she sat, whipped, 
                                tired, pained...waiting for JJ. 
                                It was her challenge, 
                                after all. She had called JJ chicken...It meant 
                                that now JJ had to prove himself. So he decided 
                                to have her sit as long as he needed to prepare.
                                 
                                Now he was ready 
                                and the challenger was waiting, her head down, 
                                as if fainted...or maybe fainted. She waited long, 
                                and I know she wasn't comfortable on that horse. 
                                Margot |   
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                                rode the wooden horse for more than 5 hours, 
                                from the moment JJ tied me to the wood and 
                                lifted me up to the moment he came back to 
                                let me down for the night, I never got a 
                                break. My choice. I felt the wood sink 
                                into my lips and the lash fall on me over and 
                                over. I felt the pain but I also felt the excitement. 
                                I felt challenged. I saw the scared 
                                eyes of Margot behind the lens, I felt her excitement 
                                as well. 
                                JJ 
                                was ruthless, as always, forgetting, sometimes, 
                                that I was not made out of rubber. But 
                                it was enough for me to look at him in the eyes, 
                                without coming out of character, for him to know 
                                that he should slow down. He took me down gently, 
                                carried me to the bed and laid down by my 
                                side. I didn't move for a while. He 
                                didn't come inside me, perhaps he was afraid he might 
                                find a splinter or two in there. Fear of 
                                pain? Margot left us for a while, when she 
                                came back we were both sleeping, in our work clothes...dirty 
                                and sweaty... we probably smelled too. She 
                                laid down by JJ and went to sleep. She was very 
                                tired, the camera is heavy.
                               
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