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The
Training of Camille - Session 1
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When did Camille begin
her suffering? JJ found her one day and liked
her. He could not imagine, back in the day,
that she would turn out to be his perfect
victim, willing to go all the way .... all
his way.
He invited her to try out for a part
in his next production. She accepted and soon
she was being cast for the main part, ahead
of the many people who spent months preparing.
Of course many were jealous of her. But they
didn't know that what JJ had in mind for Camille
was not just this job. He saw her as the great
possibility for a difficult task.
Here we tell you the story of how it
all begun, how she was trained and how, in
the process, Red Feline was born. The narrator
this time will be JJ, with a little help from
Margot and comments from Camille.
So now you'll have a big picture, as
seen by three people, the three who participated
in it.
Margot |
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This is my training, and even if many
of the events here described are nicely told
in my diary, we ... or rather they, decided
to tell the story, with most of the images
of my training.
I will comment along the way because
it's important to have all views of the situation,
specially where I'm affected.
I didn't start this as what I've come
to know a "submissive" or a "masochist", but
as an actress with the desire to understand
what the victim of torture and later on, crucifixion,
would feel.
There's no way of knowing for certain
unless one goes through it ... so, for the
sake of realism, I decided to go as far as
I could possible go ... and now I feel that
there's more for me to learn.
Camille |
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In
the words of Jan Jac, otherwise known as JJ |
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The
first time I saw Camille I was impressed with
the way her eyes seemed to shine in a powerful
way.
She looked
young, maybe too young , she was petite...well
formed yes, but very young-looking and yet there
was maturity in her eyes. The kind of maturity
you find in people who have lived a lot, not
necessarily in time, but in experiences.
Our exchange
was short, to the point, and I was very impressed
with her, with her demeanor and her views.
I offered her a job, I invited
her to come for casting but my mind was already
made up, in fact that very night I began to
change the script with her in mind.
She was what I was looking for,
but I wasn't going to let her know that, not
just yet.
To my delight the casting went
very well, as I suspected it would, she was
a natural but she needed some training, she
had to learn how to suffer. |
| The role I was
casting Camille for was not the one that was important
for me. This role was only a way to getting to
know her more. What I had in mind was the possibility
of casting her in the main role in a film I was
writing, and dreaming about for years.I didn't
know what her reaction to what the job entailed
would be, so I decided to go slow. I wasn't going
to ask too much from her, I would first see her
performance in the rehearsals and on the job,
and take it from there.
My first inclination
was to slowly show her where we were going.
In the film we were about to shoot she was going
to be killed under torture at the hands of a
serial killer. To make matters more interesting,
in the story she's role-playing with the killer,
who happens to be her lover, and she realizes,
when it's too late, that he's not playing, he
means to kill her.
Perhaps the idea of a serial
killer, a nut, was a bit of a cliche, but there
it was, written and ready. Looking in retrospect,
perhaps it would've been interesting to make
it more like a game that got out of hand.
But I had to ask myself the
question. Could it happen? Could a game get
out of hand? Of course it could if
the people involved lost control of their sanity.
I decided to keep the idea of a serial killer
who indulges in some kind of freak ritual.
One of Camille's roles was
the girl who gets killed, the other role was
her twin sister who becomes involved in the
investigation and falls in love with the defense
lawyer. I was playing the part of the
defense lawyer so I had the perfect excuse to
justify getting closer to her, I found her extremely
attractive.
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Our discussion was honest and
forward "You will be tied up, tortured
and killed. It will begin as a game and at the
first cut you have to realize that it's not
a game. For now we will concentrate only on
the killing part. We will forget the character
for the time being and concentrate on the situation."
The place where she was going
to start her training was the same I had used
for three other trainees previously. Marie,
who would play the role of a previous victm
of the killer, another actress who was going
for the part of a girl who falls in the hands
of an interrogator who tortures her for information
to incriminate someone in a crime, and finally
Margot, who was helping me work out a series
of scenes in a script I was writing, the script
that I was now planning to work with Camille.
The steps I would take were
already planned in some detail.
There was a long beam across the ceiling.
It was high enough to hold someone up, almost
hanging. It had hooks on opposite ends so I
could tie someone up there, with arms open,
cross-like.
I have a fascination with the cross since
I was a kid and somehow I have managed to worm
it into my work.
I told Camille to put a t-shirt I had prepared
on top of her underwear and to return.
She went away to change while
I prepared the ropes and the camera, my nice,
old VHS camera, one that I bought in NY just
to play with.
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