August 3rd
Today is the big day. We'll shoot the first
scene of the production ... It's strange, but
they'll shoot first the scene of my death ...
and later on the scenes when I'm alive.
August 6th
It's a national holiday today but we're
working, just the same. The first day was great,
nothing like the rehearsals. This was very professional,
very careful, I only had to remember how I felt
during my tortures, to act out the pain and fear.
We shot each take carefully. Each cut that
the madman made was shot at least three times,
the effects are incredible. It looks like they
are cutting me up. We started shooting at 6 in
the afternoon, some of the crew were off the set
because I was going to be partly nude. Only the
cameraman, the gaffer, Jan (the director and make
up FX) and Margot were on the set.
Jan played the part of the Madman, the actor
wasn't there, he wasn't needed because it's a
very dark scene and all you see are his hands
and the hood he wears.
I'm going to bed with the make up on because
tomorrow, at six in the morning we're going to
shoot the part of me being thrown off a cliff.
They need the continuity of the blood and wounds.
There's one horrible mark on my forehead and one
even worse across my neck. It looks like my head
is going to fall off.
August 7th
When we went to shoot the scene
I was very excited. My second shooting day was so
great that I felt like I conquered the camera.
The location is very interesting,
it looks like the moon, there are caves and hills
and cliffs.
In the scene we shot I'm thrown
off the cliff and a derelict man bumps into my rolling
body, He's blamed for the killing.
They shot some scenes of the investigation
first, after the body is being taken away. Then
they shot some of the vagabond scenes in his cave
and his initial walk, and finally they were ready
for me.
Jan told me to lay down at the
bottom of the cliff, and instructed the crew to
get ready, he was going to refresh the make up on
me, adding some dirt, as if I had rolled down all
the way from the edge to the bottom. Before he started
I said to him "why don't I roll down?" He looked
at me as if I was mad. "I'm serious, I said, let
me try once and if you don't like it we wont do
it".
He looked at the production manager,
he didn't want to get involved. He finally said
that we should try just the end part of the rolling.
I walked up a bit, laid down and
rolled once, without a complaint. Even though it
hurt.
Jan was excited, so he decided
to do it.
I was prepared first, they put
the make up on me ... actually Jan did it, there
were some marks on by breast and he didn't want
anybody else to touch me. He's actually a very possessive
guy. I went up a lot and waited until they set up
the camera. I laid down, waited for the action call.
I had to have my eyes open. I did it, I rolled down,
over dirt, pebbles, thorns, whatever that was on
the way and landed right where I was supposed to.
It was so good that I had to do it again and again
so we could have all the shots.
When Jan decided that it was enough,
we stopped, everybody applauded. Jan asked me to
follow him down to the cave for a minute while they
packed the equipment and prepared to leave.
I went with him to a deep part
of the cave, I was full of make up, blood and some
of my own. I had lots of scratches and some black
and blue marks.
"How do you feel?" Jan
asked.
"I'm fine", I said,
"...it hurts a bit, but I'm getting used to".
Jan took my hands, kissed them,
he then turned me around to face the small opening
of the cave, he placed my hands on top of the walls,
opened them up so I was again in his favorite cross
position. He opened my legs, spread them apart as
far as he could, he ripped whatever clothes I still
had on and made love to me.
We heard them calling us, looking
for us as we were making love. We were laughing.
"You look so fucking sexy", he
said admiring my breasts. "Your skin is beautiful,
and it looks even more beautiful with all those
scratches"
While we made love I kept thinking
of the last night we rehearsed the killing scene,
the torture scene... We already shot the scene,
there's no need for more rehearsals... no excuse
to be tortured again.
I think I'm going to miss those
rehearsals. From now on it's just normal scenes,
lots of drama, suspense, mystery and one more killing,
not mine, Marie ... she's going into rehearsals
... I wish I could be invited, but I don't think
so ... Jan likes to do those rehearsals all by himself.
August 24th
Yesterday was the birthday of
the young american actor who plays the genius of
the story. He has a crush on me and I think I led
him on. He keeps coming on to me.
August 29th
It takes a lot of work to make
a movie. No time to write, no time to think, just
be in character and live someone else's life. Tomorrow
is our day off, I'm planning to go away to the jungle
to rest, but I can't go away for more than a day...
I'm stuck here ... and what's worse, Jan picked
this day to rehearse Marie... her death scene will
be shot after the day off. I don't have a scene
that day, but I like to be in the set and help.
I'm like an assistant. |
